[kitaek27]

Or am I supposed to say, "Its not you, its me?"
I think this whole status thing is causing a lot of problems for me. People aren't seeing me as they used to anymore, and they don't see the real me.

This post is really long, so for impatient readers, go ahead and skim instead.

Let me get something straight. I think I'm overrated. For someone as pathetic as me, this much power might be too much. But I have applied and recieved the responsibilities, and my judgements are being trusted. I do what I think fits my job descriptions best.

When I was 14 years old, I first become severely addicted forum whoring (gaiaonline, legendaryfrog), and when I joined Hidden-street forums when I was 16, I began to find extreme amounts respect for the moderators.

I don't remember his name anymore, but he was well known for moderating lots of Maplestory forums, and was a reknowned hacker who always go around Nexon's protections. He was so... pro at everything. Everyone talked about him as if he was their great leader.

At the same time, I'm sitting my ass around with nothing to my advantage to become even remotely close to this guy. I knew how to use html and bbcode. I have intro level knowledge of C++. I can use photoshop well. Basic things most people in the adult world in the computer field all know.

It all started with the introduction of the WIKIs. Back at the time I could really care less about MabiGuru and MabinogiPlayer and whatever other junk websites popping up. My home was Mabinogiworld. I wanted to help out with the wiki, so Uchocobo made me wikimod (btw, the only power that gives me is to edit locked pages and ban people from wiki edits). With plagiarism and fansite hate going on, I joined Mabiguru and Mabinogiplayer to establish a solution (and failed miserably).

I felt bad about joining the sites for this single purpose, so I became fully active here (I'm a forum whore so there really was no problem). When Nexon forums made me "Honored Member", I was really happy that the hours I've spent answering questions and making guide was being recognized.

I enjoy answering questions about Mabinogi. With 5 years background experience, its something I'm actually good at. Something people don't really know too much about. Arcane Knowledge, was what Mabinogi was two or three months ago. I am fully aware that in a few more months, everone will know everything I already know, and I'll blend into the background of the crowd where I am no longer special.

With the activity I put into these forums, and the Honored Member thing going for me, I guess I got the plus I needed become a moderator here. Contrary to what you all might think, I did NOT do much sucking up. Only a week before my application, I had an argument with several staff members (including the admins) of Mabinogiplayer and Mabiguru about how its being run.

Heres my greatest reason for being a moderator. I have a MISERABLE pet peeve chilling down my spine when I see a thread that is out of place. I have a BURNING hate for threads that are found in the General Discussion pages saying "lol, when dos da seal stonez open?!" when theres 4 other threads about it right below. Since I'm on forums with most of my free time, I'm usually the first to see these. All I can do is report it and wait.

I have not "abused" my power to a great extent, contrary to some beliefs. Please excuse my "censorship" actions taken earlier. I thought it was the best option, because if anyone had to reveal info about the site's sale, it would be Itchy's responsibility. Before that, I've only banned one account ever (advert account), and I've never deleted threads, but rather lock it or reason with the creator. Maybe its because I have too much time on my hands (which shouldn't be, since I'm an AP student), I talk to the members who were supposed to be banned by the rules, and try to change their ways before any actions are taken. Please note that flaming a mod is taken care of in the same way we take care of members of flame a member. Settle personal problems against ANYONE in a PM, rather than using the boards. We will not discriminate, we will not give anyone advantages.

I think with all the popularity I've built up, and the power I have, people are viewing me similarly to the way I've viewed that one great mod I looked up to when I was 16. People expect things of me, people joke about my awesomeness.

I am a member of Mabiguru before a moderator of Mabiguru. I am a 18 year old highschool student before I am a member of Mabiguru. If I have something to share with my friends (guides, pictures, youtube videos), I will post them in several different forums to make sure that all my friends will see it. Its not an attempt to raise my post count (its on different sites anyways so it really doesn't seem to matter).

Where is my place? Where is my "Loyalty"? I love Mabiguru. I've put at days worth of hours into posting and moderating in this site. Its become a great site that I can be proud of moderating. The forums itself, in my opinion, have exceeded Mabinogiworld.

But my home is still Mabinogiworld. Why?

The friends I have made there BEFORE my ascention to power still see me as who I am. They don't see me as "the moderator of _____", but rather see me as "that silly Kitae, going off causing havoc again". They don't say "I love this, Kitae!" when I do a guide, but rather "I can do better~~~" and we would start a competition of some sort. They'll never make me a REAL mod, there are people better suited for the job there.

I'm still a fresh newbie mod. I ask around my other friend moderators who have had more experience what to do. Sometimes, my judgements are wrong. But I try.

I've had a thought or two about resigning my position here. Of course, even if I did, I wouldn't quit the site overall. And don't worry, I won't blantantly quit moderating (I'm just saying I've had thoughts). I would never live with myself seeing bad threads exist and not be able to do anything about it.

So there you have it. The extremely long, boring, and pointless story of KitaeK27. I hope some of you have a better understanding of me now. I hope that you can all realize us moderators are people too, living dull lives behind a computer, filling up as statistics on the world's economy.

Now its your turn. What can I do to improve and better fit your expectations? What do you want the mods of MabiGuru to do?

If I have done something wrong in the past, then please tell me. This is a open suggestion thread. I will not hold anything against you, so open up. In this thread, anything said against me will not be edited, removed, or punished. J...just don't do it anywhere outside this thread, or I'll have to treat it as a flame/spam.

[TofuCakee]

Oi i see Kita the member, even though your a mod. so pfft on all dat, i liked yu b4 the modship yo.

[Demetri]

Being a new member, without much experience in this forum, I don't fully understand. But, I can say you most likely feel guilt from the many posts about your "awesomeness" when you feel you aren't worthy of that praise. Either that, or you're extremely modest. Either way, you're still a great mod, and that's it.

As stated in the last part, you ask a question, a question to ask ourselves. You ask us to give suggestion to mods. I apologize that I cannot answer this, not having been here long.

You say your home is still Mabinogiworld, because of your status there as compared to here. I respect your preferences, and I shall not ask anything about that.

So, mainly my question is, what is your intention for posting this story of yours (which isn't boring or pointless)? Is it truly for members to open up? Or do you just feel like you need to let it out? If you are asking for members to open up, then I have no answer. If you feel like letting out some steam, that's good. If it's both, you get it.

I really have nothing more to say other than I believe you're a great mod, and I respect you. I now know that this place isn't just any forum, but a forum that has real people. So, I wish to enjoy my stay, and I hope you do well with your 2 homes. Not 1, 2.

[Nitechops]

Well I am mostly pretty quiet on all the forums I join. Usually just another place for information. The censoring thing is understandable and needed to be done. You have dealt with everything in a very professional manner, and so I wouldn't suggest any changes. Continue what your doing and thanks for all the info, it has helped a lot.

As for you being a mod I see it like this. I can come here, read what I want and you have to do the housecleaning. Sounds like a great deal to me!

[Mizahel]

I agree with what you say, but when one first enters the world of Mabinogi and joins a forum such as Guru and Player, there are not as many experienced players as there are at World. And out of those who have experience, you do stand out as one of the most active posters, therefore it is only natural that one would look in awe, since the difference is so great. Surely, people are reading, learning, and figuring out tricks of this game, as you said mentioned, but newcomers (which I suppose I actually still am, idk <<) will see that there are some that stand out...

Ok, I lost myself, I was playing Mabi while typing this ><

I feel really bad for not being able to add input about any guide which is useful to me, seeing as I'm learning something new, and I obviously can't even argue about something I don't know about. The solution? I need to learn more. The easiest way to do this is to read guides and then practice them (duh?). But that brings me back to the beginning of the paragraph; how do I respond?

Should I just say thanks? Or just ignore it? Ideally input would be great, but since I don't always have something important to add, it gets annoying. To who? Well, I suppose the guide writers, but also to me since I feel like I'm not contributing anything. Some guide writers expect something like "thanks" while others don't. Some get offended when there are hundreds of views and no "thanks" while others don't. Some get offended when people put "thanks" because they're like spam posts. I'm always hesitant when responding because of this, and I guess the thing I've always ended up putting is "thanks." There's nothing more I can put, until I learn more about the game.

Edit: Woops, I think I may have strayed off topic there, meh =\

[kitaek27]

Originally Posted by Demetri

So, mainly my question is, what is your intention for posting this story of yours (which isn't boring or pointless)? Is it truly for members to open up? Or do you just feel like you need to let it out? If you are asking for members to open up, then I have no answer. If you feel like letting out some steam, that's good. If it's both, you get it..

Theres been a few members who find me overrated enough to take actions about it.

Some members question my "loyalty" expecting me to be fully engaged with Mabiguru rather than any other site.

I just had to get it off my chest. So I guess its a bit of everything.

[Ryoronin]

There there, let it all out.
There are still plenty of people that got question on the game itself.
and you are the person to answer those question, you always are the first few to give a great respond.
don't let a little word take all that from you, is not worth it.
this is your life, you choose how live it.

you may not be the most knowledgeable person on this game, you may be the most powerful player.

but you care, with every inch of your heart. That count a lot.
you are the reason that I feel welcomed in many thread.
not excluded, not treated like some sort of idiot.
I can't thank you enough for what you have done. I only wish you won't feel discourage anymore. Have a nice day, you deserve it.

[Tokio]

Originally Posted by kitaek27

Now its your turn. What can I do to improve and better fit your expectations? What do you want the mods of MabiGuru to do?

If I have done something wrong in the past, then please tell me. This is a open suggestion thread. I will not hold anything against you, so open up. In this thread, anything said against me will not be edited, removed, or punished. J...just don't do it anywhere outside this thread, or I'll have to treat it as a flame/spam.

I want to see them more happy its just really "hey I did this blah lol no emoticon me no showing emoticons again.... wranger tranger wplanger!"(I dont know o_o)"
I just want the mods to show smilies faces thats all :) oh and when editings people post make them say something funny like

Originally Posted by angry spammer dude 01234

you B****!

Edited version

I love mabiguru so much ???? had to edit my post cause it was full of "love"

You get what I'm saying right ^^;?

[Falsetto]

Originally Posted by Tokio

I want to see them more happy its just really "hey I did this blah lol no emoticon me no showing emoticons again.... wranger tranger wplanger!"(I dont know o_o)"

Real business don't have room for emoticons...

Yes yes, Some of us moderators are people too... Not to say all... Ahem. Another thing I would rather ask of the members is to really message the mod's online if you have a forum problem or suggestion to us privately. I rarely receive any of this, but I openly accept all of it. When a member has a problem that can be solved by a Moderator alone there isn't always a need to post openly but perhaps more privately so we can work things out with you. While there has been no such case so far, (Which I don't believe people haven't had these troubles yet.) I will be here for whenever that day comes.

Share your feelings! Even if it means you want to talk about how good that muffin was for breakfast...

[kitaek27]

Originally Posted by Falsetto

Real business don't have room for emoticons...

NO WAI